Healing, One Trigger at a Time

Photo credit: author – the last of the ice on the pond, hopefully A few years ago, I was diagnosed with a dissociative disorder — Dissociative Disorder NOS (not otherwise specified) (DDNOS).  Dissociative disorders exist along a continuum, with Dissociative Identity Disorder (formerly known as multiple personality disorder) at the most extreme end and DDNOS…

The Battle

It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell.                  – Buddha We can do this.  We can do this, one day, one moment at a time.  Ours is a valiant battle, …

What is the Measure of a Soul?

What is the measure of a soul? It’s not what you think you “look like” to others.  It’s not even how others actually see you, what they think of you.  It’s not how many votes you get if you’re running for president of the United States.  It’s not something that can be counted by the…

Fill the Universe with You

Untwist yourself little girl. Be whole. You don’t have to make yourself into that uncomfortable position anymore. No one is forcing you to do that. Anymore. And so, untwist. Relax. Be the shape of you, who you really are. Be, go where things fit around you, easily, naturally. Breathe. Be free. Be really free. Grow….

The Book of Truths

Singer-songwriter  Craig Cardiff  passes around a “Book of Truths” during his concerts. This is a blank journal in which audience members are invited to write some personal truth about themselves, anonymously. Over the years Cardiff’s Book of Truths has become a loved and popular feature of his concerts.  He now has over 300 journals, inscribed…

I Needed Words

“I needed words because unhappy families are conspiracies of silence.  The one who breaks the silence is never forgiven. He or she has to learn to forgive him or herself.” Jeanette Winterson, Why Be Happy When You Can Be Normal

Truth

“I tore myself away from the safe comfort of certainties through my love for truth – and truth rewarded me.”    Simone de Beauvoir

Into the Wild

As I take inventory of the way I feel this morning, what I feel is: fed up.  That sums it up, loud and clear.  Fed up. I’m tired of being silent, hands tied, gag in my mouth.  I’m tired of hiding, being a speck, being invisible. I want to move forward.  I want to live…