This blog is about the “big” Recovery, ‘recovery’ in the biggest sense of that word — recovery of self, recovery of who I was always meant to be.
I am a former mental health therapist with a graduate education who, a few years ago, found myself on a medical leave from my stressful job. That leave turned into an extended time away as I dealt with — and still deal with — the reality of my own mental health problems. I have a recent diagnosis of a Dissociative Disorder (DDNOS – Dissociative Disorder not otherwise specified) and PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder). My mental health issues are rooted in a history of chronic, unacknowledged childhood trauma in my family of origin.
In the time since first being treated for these issues, I also came head-to-head with some other problems. I had financial issues and declared bankruptcy. I also recognized a budding issue with alcohol and decided to become sober. I write about those things — and other deeply personal struggles — in this blog, too. This blog is about my healing but it’s about more than that: it’s about my journey of recovery of my true self.
My home for the past couple of years until recently has been a tiny log-cabin like dwelling on a gravel road in the forest. The forest and being surrounded by nature has aided my healing and I write about that here as well. In addition to lots of psychotherapy sessions, writing and all forms of creative self-expression have become important vehicles for my healing — my return to my self — and you’ll find blog posts about those things here, too.
I started this blog three years ago and I benefit greatly from sharing my story in this venue and from reading the stories of others in their blogs. Right now, this blog is mainly for my own benefit. For the time being, I’m using a pen-name in my blog posts. This is for the simple and important reason that this allows me to be more open and honest about what I write.
I hope that, in time, this blog will turn into something more than it is right now. My hope is to help others, in bigger ways. I don’t think the commonly accessed mental health systems available to most people adequately diagnose and treat many mental health problems, particularly those rooted in trauma, including childhood trauma in families.
I’ve had support in finding the light on my path. In the future, I hope to build something that will help others access similar supports, including financial support, and that will help them to find the other appropriate resources they need to treat their mental health issues, and to find themselves.
So stay tuned. This is only the beginning.
I am so grateful to have your company on my road back to me, and on my eventual journey of creating a resource for healing for others.
I wish you all the best.